It's Me, Esme

Sigh. If anyone is actually reading these words (Please let me know!) I apologise for the oh, FIVE YEAR GAP between posts! I have so many other places I post, I so easily forget this place, even when I'm at my darkest and need to vent. I recently remembered and found myself back here, and miss the Kaylee side of myself. I have a lot of facets to myself but (All together now!) that is a post for another day.

For now though, I want to get back to my thoughts on, as the subject says, writing. Part one just below was my thoughts on other people's tg writing, and my lamenting the state of tg fiction in this day and age. I'm sad to report that the situation hasn't changed much in five years, as far as I've seen. I've found more captions here and there, and on DeviantArt, but it still seems like more of a chore these days.

Part two of my thoughts on writing, I turn my gaze inwards and want to talk about my own writings.

I've alluded to being a writer before, and I have written a few bits of tg fiction. Or more accurately, bits of fiction with tg in them. Sometimes its little in jokes to amuse me, or nods to my tg friends. More often than not, it's some sort of story with a tg element in them as a major plot. I don't really quite fit my stuff into the Fictionmania mold. It's less "here's a story about a guy who turns into a girl and how he reacts!" and more about "Oh, and by the way, while the world is ending, this guy also has the ability to turn into a girl!" I'd liken it more to writing something like Mantra, the ollld Ultraverse comicbook. And I'm probably dating myself by mentioning the Ultraverse...

But really, this is splitting a very fine hair. Ultimately though, I try NOT to write a lot of tg, outside of little jokes that make me smile. I don't want to get stuck in a rut where I become 'a tg writer'. I don't want people to hear "Oh, Kaylee has a new story in the works! I wonder what sort of girl she;'s going to turn the main guy into this time!" I want tg stories in my toolbox, but I don't want it to define me. Which is part of why I tend to have it as elements, and not the entirety, and its also why no one has probably ever heard of me in the tg fiction areas.

I am far more interested, at the moment, in developing a fantasy series, and getting back to some of my other fictional universes. I'll always give a nod to my tg roots, but in my writing, that's not what I want to define me. Honestly, I want my life to be undefinable in all things.

I like to keep people guessing. I probably had more coherent thoughts to say about this five years ago, but like I said, I really want to get back to this slightly more regularly. It's hard because this part of my life, is entirely segregated from everything else I do, where I talk about everything else, so trying to think of what I can post here is tough. And then I'm scatterbrained. The first person to make a blonde joke will get a knuckle sandwich!

K
I'll try and post before the next Presidential election!