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My latest review is up on Trisk, with a return to Subspecies, with the third flick in the franchise, Bloodlust: Subspecies 3.

There's nothing quite like Full Moon films in the 90s.

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My site just updated with the latest in depth review of some cheesy goodness. This week, I went camping for the holiday weekend, with a look at Memorial Valley Massacre.

Check it out!

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May. 13th, 2025 05:21 am
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My site has updated with a new review, taking a look at a bizarre slasher from the turn of the century, called Head Cheerleader Dead Cheerleader.

It's baffling, it's almost a bottle episode, and it's just...what was that, even?? But check out all the words for all my ramblings.

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Trisk has updated with the first review for May, and I wrap up a triple pack of Troma terribleness with a vampire movie called Tainted.

There's barely any vampires, but if you ever wanted to know what Clerks would be like with vampires, boy do I have an answer for you!

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My site has updated with it's latest deep dive into horror, and to take a break from this month's really terrible low budget silliness, and because it is the movie's 30th anniversary in the next few days, I decide tot ake a look at the 1995 remake of Village of the Damned!

Hmm, wonder why I might have opinions on this movie...

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So, folks might remember my need to update my computer, and while "get Windows 11 running" was job one, I would be lying if "Get it capable of playing Alan Wake 2" wasn't my main secondary goal.

I didn't reach that goal, the computer still needs a newer video card to play the game, but I DID get it to play for five whole minutes which is still better than the old computer noping out so hard it didn't even TRY to load, until it hit a cut scene and crashed HARD. All things considered, UNTIL that moment, it actually played very well, and if it didn't crash, I would have been happy to keep going at that less than perfect state. Gaming nerds could complain all day long about not having the latest and the shiniest and it doesn't look absolutely perfect, but man, it was good enough for me.

However, the other day someone made me aware that NVidia has a streaming gaming service, where THEIR computers run the game and stream it to you. I've heard iffy things about game streaming, but it had a free tier, and hey, worth a shot right? The biggest problem is, this service, at the free tier, only runs for an hour and kicks you out. Which can be frustrating in a game like AW2 when you see that time limit coming up and scramble for a save point.

And good gods, it WORKED and I am a *very* happy Cuckoo. Again, there are people who would complain that I'm not getting the best *EXPERIENCE* but I got the story, and to me, it still looks pretty good. Yeah, I notice a few jaggy backgrounds from time to time, but I'm just so immersed and having fun, I don't care.

I still need a new video card because this is kinda the new standard level of games going forward, but at least it doesn't feel AS pressing right now. And it's a good reminder that you don't need the latest and greatest to still enjoy a thing.

It's not a lake, it's an ocean.

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My review site has added it's mid April review, continuing the April Foolishness with a look at a mid 2000s silly vampire movie called Revamped.

It's not very horror, but it's more fun than it has any right to be.

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I just posted my new review for April Fool's Day, an absurd little monster fighting movie called Destruction Kings.

It's...weird. And dumb. But is not without its charms. But it's mostly dumb.

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It's the Transgender Day of Visibility (er it was, I exist outside of time), but as usual, I do not want to be perceived.

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My latest review is up, and I finish off the month looking at the 1980 creature feature, Scared to Death.

This movie isn't gonna change your world, but it's a solid low budget monster movie.

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I love when comics do silly little connections that make little continuity nods, and maybe answer questions that aren't that big of stakes.

In NYX a few weeks ago, my namesake's sister, Sophie Cuckoo, got called out for playing video games a lot to take her mind off her ongoing plot, and she got overly defensive, in the "Methinks the lady doth protest too much" sense.



I never really gave it much thought, but did briefly go, "Oh, I wonder who that is? Ah well!" But in this week's issue of Exceptional X-Men, the charactrer Axo gets a few texts and le gasp!



Just a fun little way to answer that, and a tease for things to come? Although, Axo was just grousing about how he's not sure if people really like him, or trust him, and all that fun stuff, because of his empathic control powers. Makes sense why he's in a potential relationship with someone he only knows on the phone. But, hooboy, for someone worried if he's using his powers on people unintentionally, being involved with a Stepford Cuckoo is either the best thing, or the worst.

My money is on worst. 😄

Also, I really like Sophie's screenname being "Just_Sophie". It pairs well with my "It's me, Esme".

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Hey! So I have mentioned I do a podcast, and it's been awhile, but my latest episode is up, and it's short. Because the movie has no plot.

You can check out all my thoughts on Body and soul here: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/episode-58-body-soul/id1257446274?i=1000699832331

Or, wherever most podcasts can be found.

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I just posted my latest in depth review, and it's not exactly horror, but the fantasy filled low budget flick Way Bad Stone, filmed in the mystical forests of Florida in the early 90s is worth talking about

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My site has updated with it's first review for March, and it's an odd little flick called Godmonster of Indian Flats.

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Trisk's last review for February is now up, and it's an odd little zombie? martial arts? slasher? movie called Mutation.

It's one notable feature is that it is the feature film debut of Katie Featherston.

It's definitely in that "not bad for a low budget flick" but it ain't good, either.

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Woot, I figured out how to get Semagic, my long long preferred LJ posting client, to work with Dreamwidth.

Will this mean I post more frequently here?

Lol no.

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So I'm gonna try and post a bit more here, and at the very least that means sharing my movie reviews.

Anyone who knows me from my former life knows I am a fan of horror movies, and I have developed a special affinity for the really cheap, bad, ridiculous ones, over the course of the last 15 years, for my website Triskaidekafiles.

If you're familiar with Joe Bob Briggs, Elvira, and Mystery Science Theatre 3000, you can kinda guess the sort of vibe I go for, even though I do this in text, with a bit of a sense of humour.

With all that said, my latest review is up, and every year around this time, I try and do a movie that I can describe as "just wrong kinda love" in honour of the holiday.

This year's victim is an obscure little slasher flick from the late 90s called Bloodletting, and you can read all my rambling about it at this link.
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Lol yes, I know.

It's coming up on two years since I posted my look back at the Arrowverse, with the intent of writing a part two (the original point of the post) memorialising. The proper time for that has probably passed, but I would like to write that post at some point. I haven't exactly *forgotten* but it did fall out of the forefront of my mind for awhile.

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So, as I have said many times, I am a nerd. No no, a Nerd. Capital N. I love comics. I make no secret, no bones, about that. So it should be no further surprise that I watched the Arrowverse. It's *probably* in my interests, and if not, I know there's a buncha other CW shows in there.

Being a comic fan, like many comic fans before me, I have always wanted to see my faves in live action. But there was always something...lacking. Even going as far back as the original Superman movie with Christopher Reeve when things really began to head in the right direction...while that came SO CLOSE, there is some goofy-ass shit in that movie. And they just got goofier (And I say this as someone who loves 3 and 4. But I don't deny what they are.)

The two biggest problems were always money, and special effects. Most of the superpowers needed effects we just didn't have available until relatively recently. (Arguably, we still have a ways to go.) To really translate comics, you needed both, and if you could ever get past those hurdles, then you had to get past how everyone saw comics as Biff! Pow! Batman '66 silliness. Batman '89 was a HUGE step forward. It had the money, and being a largely grounded character, they could keep the effects simple and limited to stuntwork (broadly speaking), and they treated the source material with respect.

There was a few good moments, but still they struggled. Trying to distill decades of comics to a two hour story (If you're lucky!) makes things difficult.

Around the time of Spider-Man 2, I hit on a main thing that really bugged me; movies fail to capture the real feeling of comics of those ongoing stories. You get a movie, you wait a few years, you get another chapter, and you MAYBE get three, and then it's been ten years, and well...I walked out of Spider-Man 2 saying something like, "You get three movies, and then they reboot, starting from scratch with a whole new origin story, and the same old villains! You never make any progress!"

And I am SO SO SORRY WITH HOW RIGHT I ENDED UP BEING. Three movies and reboot has almost become a cliche, and I saw it coming, but I digress.

I knew what I REALLY wanted was a weekly comic TV SERIES, that could capture that done in one story, leaving on cliffhangers, building to something big. Buffy did it, in their way! But again, if movies struggled to have the money and technology...LOL good luck with tv! There was always attempts, like Batman, and Wonder Woman, and as good as they were for their time, again, they just couldn't go all the way.

And then along came Heroes! That was it! That's what I've been waiting for!! Welll...the first season, at least. It captured the feelings of comics so well, it brought powers to the small screen, and it was SO good, and almost everything I wanted...except it wasn't an adaptation of anything. It was familiar, but it wasn't the same as seeing the Jean Grey on tv. But for the first time, it felt possible to some day see comics as tv series!

Sure, there was Smallville, and that was definitely a foundational show, but it was a bit too "Dawson's Creek" for me to get THAT into at the time. The more comicbooky that show got as it went on though, the more interested I became.

And uh, that got longer than I planned, before even reaching the Arrowverse. I think I am going to draw a line under this post as building context for the next one.

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Well, I was going to be all YAY, 10 years today since I started this blog! But uh, huh, whoops, that says MAR. 25, not MAY 25. Oh well.

But whatevs, I'm still going to make a post, and you can't stop me.

My previous post I mentioned how I finally realised how trans I really was, and since starting this blog pondering exactly that question, have since actually come out, and chosen a name, Esme Grey.

So, why Esme?

I picked the name from a character I have recently become enamored with, Esme Cuckoo/Esme Frost, one of the five Stepford Cuckoos, introduced in Grant Morrison's New X-Men run.

Esme Frost.
Stepford Cuckoo.
Telepathic Barbie.

All of these are about as far from me as you can get. I am absolutely nothing like Esme, or any of her sisters. Maybe Sophie, at a push. But I am almost as polar opposite to them as you can be. In demeanor, in looks, in fashion.

And yet, all three of those names, feel so SO much like me. And I cannot tell you a single reason why. Part of it is aspirational, surely. I WANT to be like a Frost. I would love to have the poise, the confidence, the almost haughty, better than you, attitude of Emma Frost and her children. I want their style, their glamour, their femininity. But I don't. I'm me. It's almost laughable that I could ever come close.

But ever since I started trying out the name Esme, it has felt more and more like MY name, not me wearing a character's name. I could never see Esme Frost reading comics, or reviewing horror movies. But I'm Esme. I do those things. Therefore they are things Esme does. Me. It really has become my name, and I just absolutely love it, and it has molded to me, as much as I've molded to it.

It took awhile for that shift in ideology to occur, but the instant it did, thinking of myself as Esme became so much easier. It just...is. If you haven't experienced this, it's really hard to put it into words.

The name for the group, Stepford Cuckoos, is also a name I wasn't at first drawn to, but it did always make me smile because being a horror fan, I know the references that make it up; Stepford Wives and Midwich Cuckoos. And being a name based on some classic works of horror fiction, it feels very much like something I would call myself.

As well as, since I used to be known as Foenix for most of my online life, and still am, the idea of a phoenix egg (egg being slang for a trans person who doesn't realise it yet) finally cracking, and a Cuckoo flies out, just like *real* cuckoos laying their eggs in the nests of other birds, just feels SO RIGHT, it's almost ridiculous that such a phrase came to be. So yeah, saying I'm a Stepford Cuckoo makes me smile on so many levels.

And Telepathic Barbie, a phrase that someone called the version of Esme that appeared on the short lived tv show, The Gifted, is a silly nickname, but I just love it. I love picturing people trying to get my attention by being like, "Hey! Telepathic Barbie! Over here!!" and it's just such a FUN and whimsical nickname, that I've adopted that too.

So all of this is a very long winded way of saying, and justifying to myself, that I've finally found myself, in the most unlikeliest of places. And since doing so, I've built up an identity and presence in the real world, online, and within myself that is undeniably me, expanding on who I've always been, and also uniquely me, separate from any other inspiration.

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