Looking Inwards

Hi everyone!

I say to...no one in particular, because I don't think a single other person has ever read a single post of mine, and that's half my fault, and I am more than okay with that.

Ahem!

I've said on this page many a times how I over time became okay with the face in the mirror, and while the gender I was assigned at birth did not match the gender I felt inside, I accepted things I could not change. I know it CAN be changed, but I felt that any results applied to me would still be disappointing. Whee, low self esteem is fun, kids!

And lately...

Okay.

I am still okay with the person in the mirror. He's still a cool guy, and I love being me, on some levels.

But...I've been seeing more and more, people going through amazing changes, at various points in their life, that have given that female part of myself start to reawaken more. An issue I thought was a settle question has come up out of the depths of my mind, and the question no longer feels as settled now.

I don't know what this means, I don't know what I'll do, but also, do not worry for me. Because I know such questions can be difficult, and while these old feelings might trouble some people, for me I feel good about it. It is good to take a moment every now and then and do some self reflection.

Maybe, just maybe, I might do something I never thought I would do. Or not. But I feel more confident about things if I did, and I see more roads open to me than before. And that's always a good thing.

Kaylee
Feeling more herself than she has in a long time
Maybe later I'll get into more details on the whys of all this.